It happened again…
Please allow me to come clean…I have recently hit a quiet streak on social media, and here is why…
Truthfully, I have been in a slump. Recently I have felt like I have been just going through the motions. Keeping my head above water. I have been needing progress, yet I have not been able to get “lift-off”.
At the beginning of the COVID lockdown, I had a burst of inspired action to play a role in contributing what I can, to help others feel healthy, empowered, and connected. However, at the time I had no idea how this would play out or how it would take a toll on ME several weeks into this situation.
It wasn’t until DAY 75, that I had AWAKENED to what I am now accountable to at this point in the process.
Some questions I asked myself over coffee on the morning of DAY 75 included, “What is happening FOR me right now? What have I been doing? Who am I becoming next?”
The source of these questions came from days of waking up with anxiety, frustration with keeping up, anger, sadness, worry, depression, confusion, and the list goes on. I have had some wins along the way from this too, but still, there was more of a heaviness inside me than the sense of peace I desire.
In a fitness program, I have noticed some key phases. In PHASE 1, I call “Initiation” we will clean up the obvious behaviours and lifestyle faults. It’s often referred to as, “grabbing the low hanging fruit”. After this phase, it is only then we are just beginning to dig into the TRUTH of what we are really here to discover about ourselves. What I created in the first 40-60 days of the lockdown, in my home-life, in my business and even in my social media content, was the obvious low fruit for me. Then I hit that slump.
I started to run low on power to execute on my targets. Days and weeks started to blend into one another. I will set myself up for a productive day and before I know it, it’s time to prep for dinner and shift into the needed downtime of home and family life, while wondering why those items are still not checked off my list.
This keeps bringing me face-to-face with the uncomfortable challenge of what I feel will really make a much bigger impact for those whom I make promises to and form agreements with. This includes promises and agreements I make with MYSELF! In comes PHASE 2…
PHASE 2 of a fitness program, I call the “Void”, is when the honeymoon is over and the real commitment to the work begins! This is where we are often met with resistance and hidden barriers that have laid dormant for a long time, waiting to be reawakened.
This is when it gets harder.. It is often the time when we may want to sleep in instead of workout. We become flexible with our meditation practice. We skip some days of reading or writing. We go a few days (unknowingly), without planning or being present to a single meal. We default to that autopilot context that starts to lead us back to our old ways. UNLESS, we step into a NEW WAY OF BEING, thing can easily return to a place of frustration. This is the real challenge! Concerning all of the above, I too had noticed that I have fallen back into my old ways.
So, on DAY 75 I caught myself. BUSTED! The same thing that has happened again and again for my clients had also happened again for me! Only, this was not so much about a fitness journey, or sport performance initiative, or health crisis of any kind. For me, this had been more about my LIFE GOALS, and SOUL PURPOSE.
This is the beauty of being in such a unique situation like the COVID lockdown. For many of us, we are being pressed to address hard questions, IF we care to slow down long enough to become aware of it.
Let the VOID in…
I began to ask myself, the same HARD questions I have been asking others who come for my guidance. These questions included:
“What ROLE do I play in all of this?”
“Who am I in this lockdown, while we wait it out, figure it out, and wonder what comes next and when?”
“Who am I when we get another update on the cases and deaths, the market swings, and the horrifying news on how humanity can perform inhumane acts when man has lost his way?”
“Who am I in all of this?”
“What role do I play?”
These can be really tough questions!!! At the time when I was getting honest with myself, I only knew some of the answers. I only knew myself up to DAY 75, because I can only speak on what I have taken action on thus far.
It was only then that I became present to where I am with all of this. I had realized that the only way I can lead, inspire and motivate change in others, is by STEPPING INTO THE JUNGLE MYSELF once again. So here I go AGAIN!
What I needed in place to ensure I follow through included:
- And probably much more!
Of the above key components, most of this is very difficult to do by myself. So, I have positioned people around me to make sure I follow through or seek guidance when necessary. I have recently begun resetting my goals and targets. I have been stepping fully into the true role I now play in this BIG SHOW we call Planet Earth.
So, here I AM. Surrendering to my commitments. Trusting the process. I am excited to see what comes next. LET’S GO!
PHASE 3 if this process, “The Breakthrough”, is what comes next if we DO THE WORK. More to come form me on that, when I produce the results I am aiming for.
What day is it for you? What has been happening FOR you up to this point? What have you been working on? What do you need next?
Feel free to reach out anytime! Or even share a comment below. We are all in this together, so we may as well work together, because LIFE is a Team Sport!
Be Safe. Be Healthy. Be Happy!
Brian DeCastro, Human Being